i just....i ......i dunno what to say...what to think....it's just all...

i mean...seven months.....seven months...every week day, i was there, for seven months....thats two weeks longer than any relationship i've ever had....

i was there for it all....and now....all gone.....all over...and i mean....sometimes it was amazing...but sometimes it was really shit and that made things difficult...i said we were over many times....but i stuck to it...i stuck to the end.

i just....i dunno....maybe its a good thing. maybe i can time this ending with me deciding what i want to do with my life....or maybe i can just start watching all over again when they start the series from the beginning on wednesday......i dunno

i think if lorelei and luke get together i'll make a clean break and sort stuff out....but if it leaves on a cliffhanger ill just live my life looped to gilmore girls forever more...wincing and wishing everytime that things worked out differently like a fallen cup hero constantly rewinding his penalty miss hoping that it might go inside the post at the next watch....

and so, one last time...ill be there...pants and shredded wheat...11.20...trying to hold the tears back....god bless you gilmore girls...god bless you.