I bumped into someone who I quite fancy (but am not madly in love with anymore) and I started a conversation with her. It was utterly, utterly painful and terrible, and probably the most awkward thing I've experienced in a long time. Nothing bad actually happened, I just couldn't think of anything to say, had basically no reason to actually speak to her, and came across as a 10/10 douche, and probably a bit of a creep (but I don't get how you can't help but always feel like a bit of a creep when you fancy someone). And then I approached her again (it all took place in a bar) and apologised for how awkward it was, which made things even worse. It involved some pathetic, semi-exaggerated woe-is-me bullshit, because I felt like I had to justify my actions of randomly approaching her. This isn't a troll thread, this is something that just happened to me a couple of hours ago and now I feel like jumping off cliff.

Don't be horrible to me on this thread. Don't. I'm not making this up. I feel like crying.